Tag: labor
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First latch
She latched with hardly any help that morning she was put on my chest, almost as if she entered this world with a mission to find momma’s milk. Everyday we had our time together. That moment where I turn to her to empty my breasts and she turns to me looking for food. We got…
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Unbecoming
When you look into the eyes of a laboring woman, it’s hard to recognize the woman you once knew. There’s an absent gaze of desperation that comes in the middle of a contraction. With that you know the woman is traveling in between realms, bouncing from reality into laborland and back again. She’s fearful, hopeful,…
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Selfish comfort
She hit her head really hard the other day and I was reminded of those intrusive postpartum thoughts that were oh so very present in the fresh weeks/months after birth. The thoughts that reminded me of how fragile life is and how little I trust myself to keep her alive. When she was an infant,…
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10 reminders
The trauma response that the body reacts to and holds onto is sometimes very different than what the mind perceives to be “traumatic”. You and I can go through the same experience and walk away with completely different emotions. We can read the same article and have two individual opinions on the information presented. Your…
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Weight of society
Shout out to all moms out there. Whether you’re about to give birth, have just given birth, or have given birth at some point in your life, you are a fucking warrior. Your body did the most sacred, selfless duty that required so damn much of your will power and surrender. Not only did you…
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Labyrinth of birth
Upon finding out that you’re pregnant, you begin to enter into a labyrinth that will lead you to birth and beyond. You walk in with big emotions ranging from utter excitement to sheer terror, knowing very well you’re entire life it about to change. Now a labyrinth is different from a maze. There’s only one…
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Silenced
I was one made to believe that I was “too much to handle”. My Emotions, Perspective, Tone, Daily struggles, Mental battles, What I wanted, What I needed, How I handled things, All of this was deemed Too Much. Your life takes a unusual shift when you find out that people who love you view you…
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Stagnation
Depression can linger behind a soft gaze, a sweet smile, a roaring laugh, and a gentle kiss. Depression can disguise itself as short breaths, nervous laughter, denial, and belly pains. Depression isn’t just sadness all the time or crying for no reason. We have taught ourselves (and been taught) so many different ways to ignore…
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Exposure
Exposure: To the parts of my body that I wish would change To the toxic thoughts I often experience To the toxic society that implants images and ideas in our minds at such a young age Exposure: To the negativity To the discomfort To the illusion And to the phobias Laying in bed last night,…
The Sacred Body 