She latched with hardly any help that morning she was put on my chest, almost as if she entered this world with a mission to find momma’s milk.
Everyday we had our time together.
That moment where I turn to her to empty my breasts and she turns to me looking for food.
We got the opportunity to study each other.
Observing her as she takes in the milk that I create with this body.
Noticing the length of her eye lashes, the shape of her mouth, the color of her eyes, her soft baby hair, the adorable tufts on her ears.
Listening to her breathe, grunt, and moan.
Watching her toes wiggle and her hands open and close, sometimes reaching out to grab hold of one of my fingers or my hair or touch a freckle.
She looks up at me and studies my skin, my face, my tattoos, my scent, my voice, and my energy as she makes connections and finds trust in our bond.
I can’t help but get lost in the moment, realizing just how big of a miracle she is.
In those moments I find so much appreciation for this body of mine as it continues to create exactly what she needs.
Breastfeeding is by far the most beautiful journey I’ve ever embarked on.
It was daily reminder to stay present and find beauty in the moments of quiet connection knowing that those moments are fleeting.
Keep reading >>
If you’re not ready
Dear courageous friends, I have some insight to offer that I wish I would’ve received. If you’re being called to review your past, to unfold some layers, and check in with your younger self, please know that it’s going to hurt. I would proceed with caution if you’re not ready for expansive growth. If you’ve…
Out here in the dry salt flats of Nevada, time stands still. The air is thick and dust filled. I draw a line on the windshield of my car in the exact same spot everyday to watch how many layers of dust settle here. A lingering stench of what I would imagine a bag of…
Rapid Rebirth pt. 3
My daughter, Liana, arrived at 2:54 in the morning, on September 7, 2018, less than three hours from the start of contractions. According to the American Pregnancy Association, rapid labor is characterized by labor that can last as little as three hours, also known as precipitous labor. I had never heard of this term prior…
Leave a Reply