Cycle breaking

We navigate our hardships and think that we’re doing the hardest part by facing our demons head on. 

While the work you’re doing is admirable, the truth is that the hardest part follows after we chip away at our fears.

Because only then do we get to fully see ourselves and get to know our own reactions towards this pain. 

When we are placed in front of the mirror and asked to see ourselves fully, sometimes we only see bits and pieces. 

And sometimes we react to the image that we see by choosing to see something different. 

So when you get through your hardship and when you get through this process of healing old wounds, you’re left with a blank slate that feels both familiar and foreign. 

It’s familiar because you’re still in your own body and it’s foreign because it’s a brand new you that’s emerging from a treacherous journey. 

In this transform has given options; now you can move forward on a new path, you can stand still in full blown freeze, or you can crumble into the pattern of pain.

Within that emotional spectrum lies anger, hatred, impulsivity, obsession, possession, and repetitive nature. 

And in that moment you have to decide where you’re going to place your next step. 

I do believe that that’s the hardest part because eventually we can find comfort in pain and discomfort. 

Taking this new step can feel earth shattering, ground breaking, and extremely terrifying. 

You’re breaking cycles. 

You’ve made it through the hardships, and now you get to decide where to place your next step.

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